okay, where to start......
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i know i havent been much of a blogger since i started this blog. the thing is, blogging and me dont seem to go together very well. i find that i either ramble on and on about pointless things, i try to make it likeable so i repost things like fashion trends and who knows what else. Then theres my self esteem. Yes this two letter word that seems to be a total pain in the rear too many times in ones short life. No, i dont lack self esteem or suffer from any self esteem issues its just that i dont want people i know to know me like really know me. know my interests and all that. no i dont thrive on being mysterious but i dont want to be that blogger girl that shares all of her thoughts and emotions in a post. i want to be that blogger girl that speaks about valid things like freedom, oppression, dignity and share my true feelings and thoughts about that. for some reason i feel like im failing that. im failing myself in succumbing to the caring what others think syndrome.i write something and i end up deleting it after rereading the preview thinking ooh this is too offensive ooh this isnt that polite ahh maybe people that knows me will think what the hell this aint her. ergggg!!!
So, from today forth I shall try to be true to the real me and hopefully not delete this post in a days time. The me that does things in accordance to my beliefs, not allowing my fears to come in the way, in doing things the way it suites me and not giving a darn about what others think after that.
Thanks for listening and sorry for going all emo on you in this post.
right .....
i know i havent been much of a blogger since i started this blog. the thing is, blogging and me dont seem to go together very well. i find that i either ramble on and on about pointless things, i try to make it likeable so i repost things like fashion trends and who knows what else. Then theres my self esteem. Yes this two letter word that seems to be a total pain in the rear too many times in ones short life. No, i dont lack self esteem or suffer from any self esteem issues its just that i dont want people i know to know me like really know me. know my interests and all that. no i dont thrive on being mysterious but i dont want to be that blogger girl that shares all of her thoughts and emotions in a post. i want to be that blogger girl that speaks about valid things like freedom, oppression, dignity and share my true feelings and thoughts about that. for some reason i feel like im failing that. im failing myself in succumbing to the caring what others think syndrome.i write something and i end up deleting it after rereading the preview thinking ooh this is too offensive ooh this isnt that polite ahh maybe people that knows me will think what the hell this aint her. ergggg!!!
So, from today forth I shall try to be true to the real me and hopefully not delete this post in a days time. The me that does things in accordance to my beliefs, not allowing my fears to come in the way, in doing things the way it suites me and not giving a darn about what others think after that.
Thanks for listening and sorry for going all emo on you in this post.
smile, breath and step out from behind the shadows created by yourself
Bismilaah Hier Rahmaan Nier Raheem(In the name of God)
here I go...
